WHAM to my 'self righteous' Pride!!

Boy, does God ever know how to 'grab our attention'.  And, it is always for the purpose of making us better than we are.  Some of us (at least me) need a lot of "making better".

I have been re-reading Odis' letters that he wrote to me in 1973 and read one that brought me to my knees!  It caused me to doubt if I could expose my soul and reveal it!  I already feel like I am undressing in public with writing the book and this is making me feel 'naked in public'.  Then I realized that in displaying that letter others can see the character this wonderful man exhibited and how he struggled to balance his commitment to God and his devoted love for me.  He loved God so much, he loved me so much and always wanted to do the right thing!  He told me one time that he loved me so much that if he didn't have God in his life, he would worship me!  He said God is always first but you are so close at second!  

I just added a new chapter "Love and Struggles" that will be worth the price of the book.  How God reveals Himself is beyond the awesomeness of God.  When I finally finish the book, the proceeds from it will go to the Gideons.  Missions were Odis priority and he loved spreading God's word by being a part of the Gideon ministry!

I always told him, we would go together in the rapture.  Having been raised in a Pentecostal Church, I did not have security as a believer and thought God would "knock me off into hell" with one little mistake.  As a Baptist, he was taught God's love and the security of the believer that God was not 'out to get me' that I didn't get until later in my adult life.  He would tease me he believed "once saved always saved" and knew I would go to Heaven because he loved me so much, he would reach down and 'grab me' on his way up.  

As these thoughts ran through my mind, I was missing him and walked to my kitchen window and said, "Lord, why did you leave me here?  I always thought you would take us together!"   Just as clear as a bell, I heard in my heart "You're not perfected yet"!  Wham to my self righteous 'holier than thou' pride!  

Then at Tuesday Bible Study, we studied in Isaiah that God takes the righteous to protect them from the evil to come. I thought, Geezz not only am I not perfected, but I must not be righteous! I'm still here!

So, folks, I will not have any time to worry about your "badness" cause I have too much work to do on me!

I'm so glad God loves us humans!